Canadian Olympic medallist Clara Hughes has acknowledged a doping infraction early in her international cycling career.With a memoir due out Sept. 8, Hughes granted her first interview to CBC News, telling The National's Adrienne Arsenault that she could have taken the secret to her grave.
Instead, Hughes decided to risk harsh public judgement and open up about the 1994 incident.She says a few months after cycling's world championships in Sicily, she got a call from Pierre Hutsebaut, Canada's national team director, telling her that her sample from the time trials had tested positive for the stimulant ephedrine.
"To this day, I don't know how that happened. I have never talked about it," she said. "I have no reason for it. I have no excuse for it. But it is real. And it makes me sick. It actually makes me sick because I know I didn't do anything, and it is so empty to say that 21 years later."
She insists she has no idea how the stimulant got in her sample. Nonetheless, at the time, she was given a three-month suspension in the off season and says she was advised to keep the matter to herself. So she stayed quiet for nearly two decades, never talking about it, but often mulling over what might have happened.Ephedrine doesn't materialize out of thin air. Hughes knows that. But she says she's always wondered if the positive result was a lab mistake or perhaps an act of sabotage.
"My bottle was on my bike when I went to the porta-john and I remembered going and leaving my bike there. Whether someone did something to my bottle, I will never know. Or whether something [happened] in the lab, I don't know."
Over the years, other athletes with positive drug tests have made similar claims, only to be greeted by howls of skepticism by the public and wider sporting world. That seems to be the reaction Hughes is bracing for now. "There is a huge risk" in talking, she says.
"I still actually don't know how to talk about this. But because I wrote this book, I did feel that I had no choice. Definitely. Maybe that's in some small way part of the motivation [for] writing this as well… finally being completely honest."