ChrisE RIP.

[Semper Fidelis]

No easy way to put this out here and I on PM's almost everyone has asked so I will go ahead and say it.

Chris committed suicide. I never seen it coming and wonder if I should have. I have questioned myself over and over with the knowledge that I was with him on a Friday spoke to him on the phone on Saturday and he was gone on the following Tuesday. I just did not have a clue that he was hurting about something. I wish I could have talked him out of it. But I just don't know what all went wrong.

ALL I can say to anyone here is that when you are either hurting or getting down about something - put it out there for people to hear, let your feeling known and maybe someone will be able to help.

 

[python]

i appreciate the details glen !

let me assure you, a real-life python is much less serious than the internet image you described. i was touched by seeing chris and his affection for his daughter !

 

[Semper Fidelis]

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i appreciate the details glen !

let me assure you, a real-life python is much less serious than the internet image you described. i was touched by seeing chris and his affection for his daughter !

Dude we gave you toooooo much and much more than anyone else. You hung right in there and gave it back!
The last conversation we really had about the old DPF and rational head was about "house" "hombre" etc. We laughed at how you would give us a ban and we would try to troll you.

I'm glad I was able to tell you that it was not as personal as we seemed. I hope you really do understand that.

Yes His daughter his dog and his fishing was what he always talked about. Used to be cycling a good deal but after Lance got busted he sorta lost his fanboy ways and moved on. For him it was still about the 7 wins.

 

[Jagartrott]

I think this goes for most suicides: friends and family cannot see it coming.
So you should not pain yourself thinking you should/could've known.

 

[Beech Mtn]

Oh man, I'm very sorry to hear that it was suicide. Don't want anybody to be hurting that deeply. Don't want you to be hurting with guilt either, Glenn. Not you nor his family and friends who are probably all thinking the same kind of thoughts. Really sorry about all this.

 

[python]

...totally sad hearing about the suicide. at 50... :sad:

 

[on3m@n@rmy]

Sad for everyone. Thanks Glenn for sharing. And don't beat yourself up for not knowing he was hurting. Not your fault.

 

[Scott SoCal]

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No easy way to put this out here and I on PM's almost everyone has asked so I will go ahead and say it.

Chris committed suicide. I never seen it coming and wonder if I should have. I have questioned myself over and over with the knowledge that I was with him on a Friday spoke to him on the phone on Saturday and he was gone on the following Tuesday. I just did not have a clue that he was hurting about something. I wish I could have talked him out of it. But I just don't know what all went wrong.

ALL I can say to anyone here is that when you are either hurting or getting down about something - put it out there for people to hear, let your feeling known and maybe someone will be able to help.

That hits really close to home right now. And Glenn you probably never would have seen it coming. Nobody did in my family either.

 

[Tricycle Rider]

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No easy way to put this out here and I on PM's almost everyone has asked so I will go ahead and say it.

Chris committed suicide. I never seen it coming and wonder if I should have. I have questioned myself over and over with the knowledge that I was with him on a Friday spoke to him on the phone on Saturday and he was gone on the following Tuesday. I just did not have a clue that he was hurting about something. I wish I could have talked him out of it. But I just don't know what all went wrong.

Oh man, that's harsh. I didn't really know ChrisE because we didn't interact here at CN (and because I mostly lurk), but I do recall his rather very distinctive avatar.

One of my clients (who is in his 90s now) was a teacher way back when, one day he saw one of the students from his school riding by on a bicycle while he was mowing his lawn. He just waived at the kid and went on about his business of mowing his lawn... turns out the kid was on his way to a locker room at the school where they had later found he had hung himself.

To this day my client questions whether there is anything he could have done, or could have said to this kid to prevent the suicide, if only he had quit mowing his lawn.

Condolences, and trust me, there's probably no way you could have known your friend was about to commit suicide.

 

[blackcat]

crawfish #ftw

 

[blackcat]

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Wow, that's some sobering and surprising news. Sorry for your personal loss Glenn. I remember that guy from way back in the Daily Peloton forums, he was always quite a character.

RIP ChrisE. Definitely enjoyed a lot of his posts.

dailypeloton forums rules, until vaughn kept on banning me.

he passed away a few months ago too? #cavalotoso I think was his DP handle.

 

[Semper Fidelis]

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crawfish #ftw

CRAWFISH! no doubt. Every-time I hear someone talking about getting Crawfish I think about Chris now!

 

[red_flanders]

Thanks for the update and details Glenn. Again, sobering. One of my best friends growing up committed suicide, and I never saw it coming. This despite his mother having done the same, and him confiding in me that he was having a hard time. For some reason it just never crossed my mind that it was that bad for him. Maybe I'm just dense or insensitive, but ultimately after wrestling with it for a long time I think it's just hard to imagine that someone you know that well, who seems that fun and full of life will do such a thing. Wish I would have know. Not sure that it would have made a difference.

Cool to see images of him. Not at all what I imagined. All I can see is that avatar...

Sorry again Glenn. Tough stuff. Hang in there.

 

[Semper Fidelis]

The avatar was pure Chris and effect!

RED and others you guys are the last I would expect to have felt the experience of this.

Honest this is the first person I have ever know to take their own life. It is a struggle but not something I can't handle. SO Far I love life. But my experieces have been much and beyond was I would expect to encounter.

 

[ferryman]

That's some poignant stuff you have been posting Glenn. I remember Chris well on here, and now most of the dummy accounts you both set up!! I can't start to understand what you and his immediate family are going through, but all I can say is, that I've known people who have taken their own lives, and I had no idea that was the place they were in. You CANNOT and MUST not have any guilt over Chris's death my friend.

 

[Semper Fidelis]

Wish I could have known the pain. Now its done. Whats left but the selfish suffering.

Thought I was tough and yet I'm such a pussy.

Tired and done sums up the rest.

 

[blackcat]

thanx for the laffs eponymous E

 

[blutto]

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Wish I could have known the pain. Now its done. Whats left but the selfish suffering.

Thought I was tough and yet I'm such a pussy.

Tired and done sums up the rest.

....nahhhh, you're just being a regular. the way he originally designed them, human....and btw being tough and being human are not mutually exclusive, in fact they go together as a major chunk of the package....a big part of the fuzzy logic we are blessed with....

Cheers

 

[DamianoMachiavelli]

Daaammmnnn. Why couldn't it have been ChrisH or Whareagle?

Does anybody here remember Skandar Akbar?
Remember how he said that
We would meet again
Some sunny day?
Skandar! Skandar!
What has become of you?
Does anybody else here
Feel the way I do?

 

[jsem94]

Given that his is one of the most impersonal internet forums out there and we hardly get to know the people behind the usernames it is still with the utmost sadness to have to see someone go like this.

I'm gutted even though I didn't really know the man. Condolences to his family.

 

[Benotti69]

Only seen this.

RIP ChrisE

Ta for posting Glen.

 

[mastersinart]

Please send me Private Message Re: ChrisE. He was my best friend in Houston. I called him last night and both numbers were NIS. You seem to be the only one who knows what happened. This is David from CA, the guy behind dickwrench and thaipanda.

 

[mastersinart]

Please send me Private Message Re: ChrisE. He was my best friend in Houston. I called him last night and both numbers were NIS. You seem to be the only one who knows what happened. This is David from CA, the guy behind dickwrench and thaipanda.

Thanks Glenn, I finally got ahold of Angel this morning. Thanks for being a friend to "Chrissy".

 

[mastersinart]

Please send me Private Message Re: ChrisE. He was my best friend in Houston. I called him last night and both numbers were NIS. You seem to be the only one who knows what happened. This is David from CA, the guy behind dickwrench and thaipanda.

Thanks Glenn, I finally got ahold of Angel this morning. Thanks for being a friend to "Chrissy".

 

[Semper Fidelis]

Please send me Private Message Re: ChrisE. He was my best friend in Houston. I called him last night and both numbers were NIS. You seem to be the only one who knows what happened. This is David from CA, the guy behind dickwrench and thaipanda.

Thanks Glenn, I finally got ahold of Angel this morning. Thanks for being a friend to "Chrissy".

Yes no worries. I will PM you my email / phone if you want.

By the way Chris as you know got the largest kick out of the dickwrench and thaipanda usernames. He was accused and so was I with respect of who was behind those usernames.

Good times. Good and Great guy.