Hmmmm... I was watching during the "EPO era" too, and well before, and I have very few doubts, both then and now, that what I was watching was state of the art in pharmaceutically enhanced performance. From watching Gewiss and Mapei spank the peloton until the rest of the teams all figured out how, I would have to live in complete denial to not understand that every Classic and GT winner that I cheered for in that decade was on the sauce. Why should I believe that it is any different now? It's just something that I am willing to accept. It doesn't make me more a fan or less a fan. It doesn't make me a Fanboy (not that there is anything wrong with that). And it doesn't make my understanding of the nuance of professional cycling somehow less.
It is amusing to read all the ridiculous postulations espoused in the Forum on how to clean up cycling once and for all, and what kind of draconian vigilante justice should be metered out against those riders arbitrarily deemed more guilty. Cycling will never be clean. It never has been, so why should it start now?
The notion that any competition is fair, whether it is drug free or not is pure fantasy. Should there be doping controls... Absolutely! Will they irradiate doping in sport?... more than a million years of human development say No. Understanding that as reality and refusing to grab a pitchfork and join the mob is not ignorance of the facts, or tacit approval of them. It is not a condition of being a "fan". It is a condition of sport.
Being a career poster on Cycling News Forum, and laying in wait to smear fellow posters with a different opinion in a stream of unrelated innuendo and BS that you just made up, does little to reinforce your deluded position as a superior cycling fan. I am sure that therapy would help you get to the bottom of you love / hate relationship with cycling and those individuals that you so consistently demonize. Unfortunately I fear that hate the part is this thing that keeps you watching.