- Mar 10, 2009
joe_papp said:I'm not surprised that he articulates a feeling of relief at being caught, almost a liberation. [....]
Yes, that part stood out as well. To me it seemed as if he was saying that once you have gone down that path, there is no way back, almost - as you highlighted the behavior of an addict maybe? - wanting or hoping to find a way out. The temptations and the stakes seemed to be too high, income, fame, reputation...(perhaps even the kick that you can get away wit it?) Only a positive test would pull the rug from under his feet.
On the other hand, I think it's very individual. He for example also stated that he was 'not very professional', because he told his friends, his inner circle, 'otherwise it would have torn him'.
Das war unprofessionell. Professionell sind solche Fahrer, bei denen nicht einmal die Ehefrau etwas weiss. Aber das konnte ich nicht. Ich musste reden, sonst hätte es mich zerrissen.