Digger said:
Just finished it all. I feel drained. There were tears in my eyes for the last part.
It's all such a mess. I hope he gets a job outside of cycling and once the investigation is over, never looks back.
He's too good and honest for cycling. I can't be bothered arguing with the Flickers of this world about him. He has paid enough of a price. Not easy to articulate, but that piece is bloody powerful, fascinating, troubling and sad. It's a f***ing tragedy and I just hope to God he gets some peace in the future. The pain leaps out of the words. Anyways that's my take on today. I shall leave it to the rest of yee to argue it out amongst yourselves.
I am with you, right up to the point that Floyd said that he would do it all again, the same way, if he was given a blank piece of paper. Except he wouldn't lie about it. He would still do everything
needed to win the TdF. For that feeling.
That to me translates as being honest about cheating (subtext - it is the only way). And it makes him very suited for the world of cycling, still, I'd argue.
I don't think he is the worst player in the piece, not by a long stretch. But he ain't exactly a hero to me either. This new stance is happening after he had no way back in left, and he realised that the only way forward for him is to make peace with his past, for himself, and move on.
I am sure he would love it when it will change things for the Floyds of the future. But the heroes, to me, are the ones that would have a shot at a clean career, but decide to walk away from the route needed before embarking on it. Anonymous guys that are taking a real personal hit, and do it anyway.
Don't get me wrong, from a human pov he sounds a decent enough chap, and I do wish him well, whichever way he wants to take himself now. I am sure that if I got to know him, I would probably prefer folk like him over many others. And I am sure as hell glad he is saying what he is saying now, giving others a chance to make a difference.
But to glorify someone who went the whole way, tried to climb back on the iron horse with the same ambition, and only gave up after the last chords were severed... that's a bit too much for me.
He's had one heck of a walk through life, so far, that's for sure. I'd love to sit down for a drink and listen.
There is a great tragic story here. The guy is utterly human, paradoxically straight-up in a self-contradictory sort of way, a cheater and liar with a genuine conscience. Naive and inquisitive. Dumb and wise (maybe after the fact, but still). Strong and fragile. Tormented and maybe finally, hopefully, on his way to a peace of sorts. An exaggerated tale of many things we all recognise.
Deep down not any worse or better than the vast majority of us? Probably.
But "good" and "honest"? I don't know. That's a bit too much glory for a late arrival, to me, although his latest life-story finally starts to sound truthful.
He'd do it all again.