thehog said:
To fair on Oscar he initially supported Landis. He changed his tune months later. The entire saga also destroyed Pereiro. He was never the same after that experience. He was the winner but not the winner. He wanted to claim the win but couldn’t claim the win. There were no winners in all of this.
Schleck is in the same weird spot now. At some point someone nails you to the floor and asks you directly if you feel the winner, if the other one stole it from you. And you have to answer one way or the other. Even if in your own mind would rather not.
You either claim the win, and can only do that by saying that Contador stole the Tour from you. Or you don't claim the win, saying that Contador is "still the winner to me".
If Schleck is clean, both stances are within the realm of human responses, but one takes quite a bit more mental "are you for real" leapfrogging.
If he is dirty too, there is no good way out, especially if you still have some sense of fairness and justice, which most people will still have, even in the warped world of institutionalised cheating ("I'd never do that").
You either refuse to claim the win, and insinuate that your hands are stained too, triggering a follow-up question that will never go away. Or you claim it, tell the audience you feel it was stolen from you. Which leaves the other rider, inevitably, feeling frustrated, and wronged. A sense of being thrown under the bus, a sense of being
unfairly treated, by equal cheats. A sense of betrayal can leave a very deep cut.
If Pereiro was initially supportive of Landis, but caved after a while, it was probably because "he is still the winner to me" is a totally impossible position to hold. It raises issues that won't go away. Internally you might have peace with a spot that you feel does most "justice" to the other. But that pesky external world won't leave you in comfortable limbo. Not everyone can hold their preferred spot when the question mark over yourself keeps haunting you.
Let's see how Schleck will deal with it, over time.
Landis is interesting. He gives an interview in which he states how he was in a spot where you have to face the music one way or the other. And, in way, asks for understanding why you can say one thing that you'd rather not do, even if that backfires on others. And once on a path, how hard it is too step of it, before you have reached all its dead ends.
He finds it frustrating people carry grudges towards him. That they see him as a liar, a cheat. A dirty villain. When he feels he ain't that bad.
Yet he is very quick with the "**** him!" or "I won't make that mistake again". It is always more ****ty and hurtful to be at the receiving end of a (perceived) injustice, than to dish it out to others, I guess.
Confronted with his parents expectations, confronted with the question "did you dope". confronted with a spot where you tell it one way or the other, knowing the right one will cost you.... he chose to lie.
And now, he decides he doesn't want to lie. But he'd still do the same thing. It is still "me me me". I hope he can find a world in which he wouldn't do the same thing, for his sake. Or at least would not involve them, and do it all alone.
I once made a real wrong choice for what I felt were the right reasons. I have seen the hurt it triggered in others. I can't fathom how someone would be able to utter "I'd do it all again", after seen what price was also paid by others around him. I hope he finds the sort of peace that embraces others more.
Landis is still in this for himself. I don't mind that. Just don't get too caught up in a very gripping and human story, and no doubt an enigmatic character to many, without losing sight of that. We might be keen for someone to tell us that kind of story as frank as it seems. But he ain't doing this for us. Buyer beware. Still.
Some of that "me first" instinct is still alive and well, I'd argue, judging by the attitude he has to others who simply did exactly what he did. Although most of what he says is ringing true for me too. And I am certainly glad he is saying what he is saying.