Just finished reading it. Cost me a couple hours of sleep over the past few days, but worth it.
I am not a book reader, and Lance's first few fiction titles were among my latest book reads. My life since changed, in that I have taught myself to notice sincerity. I found need for that after finding The Clinic, and truth sources on other fields of interest.
I'd heard even at the height of Tyler's controversy that he was supposed to be such a cool guy to hang out with. Just reading the book, and I can tell that to be true.
Not sure what to feel now. If such immensely kind people can dope, and dope the heck out of themselves, it gets hard to be a simpler doper hater. I may need a new rap.
Yeah, I'd been a shallow Floyd fan before he tested positive, and believed him for quite a while (regarding testosterone, I and still 50/50 or better in his favor), and I am a fan of how he handled being a non-liar for a change.
I am not one to get all warm and fuzzy about guys known to wear spandex most of the day, but do feel like I could be friends with both of them. I would learn a lot as a human from Tyler, and would have a heck of a time hanging with Floyd. Expressing this, as the dope-hater that I am, is confronting.
They are role models as far as dopers go. Doping found their darkest spots, and occupied them, controlled them to become what they didn't set out to be. While I rode against neither of them, their kind did cheat me out of prize money. They did their part keeping me off elite teams, they did help set the threshold needlessly high. And yes, I still cannot bear watching cycling. It needs to clean up, confess en masse, and then I'll try it again.
As some parts of Tyler's book came so close to quoting The Clinic, I'll address you here: thanks for being honest and elaborate. You could have sufficed with "I doped, we all did, even Lance", but you instead raised our understand of the doping mind to a new level. You took the guesswork out. Lies are not written in such language. Good luck with you training company, I wish you well. The past days I've come to realize that I might actually consult an ex-doper to train me in XC skiing, running, and getting back on the bike, to take on my own big race goal, and unlikely result result there. I need to let that sink in for a while. I may not be religious, but at I am seeing a new side of myself emerging, I am warming up to the idea of forgiving someone who's guilty. Thanks for that.
J, The Netherlands