Hugh Januss said:
I don't believe it is a valid question. I honestly think by the time you are a 400K or even 100K a year pro, that decision has long since been made.
As you start to show promise at the upper amateur level you learn more and more about how to "prep" yourself, first not really illegal stuff from the experienced guys in your local team, progressing all the way up to the "tricks of the trade" that you may learn from national team or developmental pro team trainers. It is probably not even a finite line that you are aware of crossing. One day you're a top junior powering down 3 mocha gels and a hit on an inhaler right before a 10 mile TT and the next you are in a hotel in France hooked up to a blood bag. Or something like that.
Precisely. Almost nobody starts out with the
intention to dope, however, as one progresses one eventually realizes, if not
right away, that it is impossible to continue at that level
without dope. That's the truth. And anyone who doesn't believe this is either a fool or a liar to himself. Nobody, or pratically no one, says to himself I must dope at a certain point because, initially, their sense of so-called ethical behavior prohibits them from doing so and they are even repulsed by the prospect, but then they invariably very soon realize that if they continue with their moral arrogance in a world that
is anything but moral, that is flagrantly immoral and corrupt to its gills, they will be left behind and everthing that they have ever dreamt of since boyhood will go up in smoke as they say.
The appalling reality is that sport, all sport, in this day and age, creates monsters, not athletes, who are willing to go against every moral principle they ever had just to stay in the field; though such dreadful beings, which aren't real athletes but
depravity itself, have been in part the victoms of a horrible system in which economic interests, science and the vulgar desires of society have come together with the lethal effects for our civilization that are evident to anyone willing to open their eyes to them who are indeed few. And even without passing moral judgment upon the so-called athletes, we, if we are in any case to be
intellectually honest, are forced to pass moral judgment on this dreadful system where hypocrisy is the order of the day and omertà is the governing code, all in the name of profit and corporate image which is naturally repulsive.